When school reopened a few weeks ago, a typical paranoid student like myself, was hoping for pressure and stress. Instead, everything just feels so adequate that it honestly feels uncomfortable.
After 6 months of crazy elbow grease and pressure, I finally know how to balance things and was eager to test it out. Not that I ask for pressure and stress. It's just that, all this "safe" and "relaxed" feeling is making me procastinate in my work and itch inside like crazy. I am roaming around looking for something to make me feel that tiredness and appeased feeling to know that I am studying. I am not asking for loads of stress or God to erase this liberty. I just don't like the fact that I am not pushing myself.
Finals are just months away and the biggest examination of my life is eaxctly one and a half year to come. And and here I am, all relaxed and blogging. I don't know what else to do.
