Those who have known me for a long time, would know that I was never this girl who wants to be close to Him and His Beloved Ones. I was so far from Him to the extent that I dreaded going to any Islamic Majlis what more Majlis Rasulullah PBUH. Thinking back, brings tears to my eyes and would pierce my heart. Astaghfirullah. I was that far away from Him and Rasulullah PBUH..
I do not know what I did to deserve this beautiful Hidayah from him. Now, I count the days to every Qiyam and to every Maulid. I treasure every moment when I am in a Majlis with Ulama's whom I know are His beloved ones. Masya'Allah.. There is so much that I want to say but not easy to put into words. This experience, this spiritual ease could only be felt by those who've experienced it. And non of it can be put into words.
I personally am shocked to feel this in me. To me this is a miracle that I never thought could happen. I now embrace my religion, Islam. Embrace myself as a Muslim. I thank him everyday for giving me the opportunity to say His name again and again. To say selawat to the Prophet Muhammad PBUH.
The best part of all this is, being surrounded by positive brothers and sisters who reminds me of Him and Rasulullah PBUH everyday. I long to be together with them everyday. To, together call His name and share 'Ilm. He has brought me closer to people whom He knows will bring me to His path, and Insya'Allah all of us will together walk this path to Jannah.
Ameen.
