After much deliberation and a lot of blog-hopping, I have decided to update this nostalgic blog of mine.Some may be asking, did she die? Or probably; Another hospital admission? Or the most popular; is she going to delete her blog?! Haha. Well the answer is folks, I've been very very busy. No not only with the normal "school" excuse. But also with books, family etc. Well yeah fine, mainly it is school. The great thing is that after all that, I can blog freely with no restrictions or that guilty feeling in my tummy when I know I should be sitting on my desk with my Math book or Tauhid. The joy of being free and happy is sweet. That's what I feel right now. The sweetness of "after elbow grease". Haha.
So how's life for each and every one of you? I hope all is good. Life is well for me. The normal roller-coaster of life obviously still applies. Currently I am just sitting at the edge of my own personal theatre seat, watching my life being played infront of me, waiting what is in store for me. Exam results are being released. Though, I am not able to accept them right this very moment (week). I kinda sprained my ankle and pinky toe. So I am stuck at home. Alhamdulillah it is after my exams therefore, I do not have to face the misery of not taking my papers. Still, I am very very frustrated as I am not being able to receive my results with my own hands.
I had a really good ole' long talk with Mom about my education. Wow I tell you. Water works. Haha. I told Mom I am not satisfied with my MYEs. I just know I wouldn't reach that goal I aim for. All that she said was "You may be working hard. But, have you been devoting yourself to Allah?". That was really a big knock on my head. After thinking back, I cried. I honestly agree with her. I remeber this very sayings on this particular poster on my school wall "Boleh bangun malam untuk belajar. Kenapa tak bangun malam untuk bertahajud kepada Allah?". From there I realise my huge mistake. Hey, no don't get me wrong. I'm not being boastful or whatever here. I just thought that this might me a very important message to all Muslim students out there. You might work our butt off for you exams and still, you don't achieve your goals, have you ever ask yourself why? I realise that now.
I want to reach for the moon. But Mom said to first reach for the stars. Sadly,
I myself think that I'm going to fall on the coconut tree.
Now, I know my limits, I shall aim for the stars. Stars, watch out. I'm gonna get you.
Salam alik.
Lot's of Love,
Leanna
